I dunno how I'm going to do it, but I'm going to revamp the whole of the entire evangelism blog run by me and Cheri... Will do it next week... It was a sudden inspiration...

gazed at e stars@4:17 PM
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I'm more sure than ever that i'm on the right path! (So confident eh? haha.) Praise e Lord...

gazed at e stars@11:14 AM
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Hmmm. Its just great to find an old lost friend like Cherrylene! :) So cool la. She remembers me but I don't remember her. That shows that a whole chunk of my pri school memories have been washed away... lol. Hmmmm. This week is going to be such a packed week. People keep asking me to go out, and I dun have the time to do so... As I've mentioned in my schedules, I cannot afford not to study... I will take breaks by phototaking whenever I'm free...Perhaps read a few non-fiction books... but window shopping? Going to town to shop? Definitely not my cup of tea. haha. I shall jiayous. The challenges ahead are quite great... It will soon pass off as history, not to worry... I'm never alone.... #muacks# to the Lord.

Another avenue slowly opening to me...

gazed at e stars@8:35 AM
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Came across this crazy website tt claimed that the end of the world comes in 2008. Citing nonsensical facts about nuclear bombing of the United Nations and also some weird assumptions that the apocalpyse will take 400 days. What madness led this people to think this way?

No eye has seen no ear has heard what God has planned out for us all.

Woah. I met an old lost friend. I cant believe it. I dun even remember her anymore... Cherrylene. I dun remember her! But shes mey ex neighbour! since pri sch... woah...

gazed at e stars@4:08 PM
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Work due this week:

Wednesday - Communication Issues 800-1000 word Essay
Thursday - Socpsy Quiz
Friday - Speech communication impromptu speech
Sat - Writcom test

Schedule:

Monday
8pm - Research for comm issues
9pm - Writcom Online Quiz
10pm - Study socpsy

Tuesday
9am - Proceed to Bukit Gombak
1030am - Proceed to Clementi
11am - Clementi
1105am - Lunch
1110am - 7pm - Shooting @ National Stadium
9pm - Home Sweet Home
930pm - Comm issues re-thinking
1030pm - Study for socpsy

Wednesday
10am - Socpsy studying
11am - Comm issues rethinking
1pm - Com issues
3pm - End of Comm issues
330pm - Study for socpsy quiz
8pm - Home Sweet Home
9pm - Study for socpsy quiz


Thursday
9am - Study for socpsy quiz
12pm - Socpsy tutorial
2pm - End of socpsy tutorial
3pm - Radio tutorial
6pm - End of tutorial
630pm - Proceed home.
730pm - Study for writcom test
930pm - Prepare for impromtu speech

Friday
9am - Speech communications
12pm - End of tutorial
1pm - Writcom tutorial
4pm - End of writcom tutorial
430pm - Study for writcom test
630pm - MRT station
10pm - Study for writcom test

Saturday
9am - Writcom Test
12pm - End of Writcom test
1pm - Leaders Training session
330pm - ??? Messed up ???

gazed at e stars@9:20 AM
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Following the mad rush and stuff in my previous post, something hit me.
I've been getting too impatient and "gan cheong" when it comes to doing things. And thus God spoke to me.
"Wait with a great attitude. GO into neutral mode when u're tired. As you develop patience, you develop capacity. Persistance. Faith. Pray boldly." - Pastor Pringles. ( On Sat )
"Prayer is important in God's plans for other people. Moses was persistant in his prayers. Do not focus on what you want, but focus on God." - A bible reading I read from Exodus ( On Sun )
Its not a coincidence bah. Kai Wen, slow down. Dun kan cheong. LOL. Take things easy.

The calling has come. The faith will be tested. The self-conviction. Stay unswerving.

gazed at e stars@5:42 PM
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I'm so UPSET. The worse thing happened today.

It even has a twist at the end.

This morning was fine. Speech communications was great. Though I accidentally offended someone during sharing... I'm really sorry k! Din mean it... :( Writcom was okay la.

After Writcom i had 2 hours of freetime. I went to NH where i edited photos for that time. Passed the pics to Mr Chia, met a new friend... :) ERm But got held back by Mrs Lim Lye Sim, and that sparked off a whole chain of unfortunate events. The whole schedule got ruined.

My handphone ran out of batteries. Totally.

So i was totally uncontactable by anyone. I ran alll the way to Clementi Station. It was 630pm. I was late for the meeting at JE station. I arrived at 645pm. Nobody there. I panicked. Took a random bus, 334, in the hope that I can find Jeanie's house by grace of God. Travelled and got totally lost. I panicked. Took a taxi, circled the area. Still cant find her house. I got no directions, no phone and nothing. Ran out of money. I panicked. Decided to go home. It was 8pm.

When i got home, I realised that my HP charger was in my bag. It could have been solved easily if I had remembered that I shoved it in this morning. It was all my fault. I hate myself. HOw can I do this! I missed the whole thing just becos of my stupidity and foolishness to go to NH, and not realisin that i had my charger. The whole nite was screwed up. DARN IT.

gazed at e stars@8:42 PM
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A total of 6835 pics in the photo blog.
A total of 2217 pics in the special photos blog.
A total of 491 posts in my main blog.
A total of 66 pics in my more photos blog.
A total of 64 posts in my profile blog.

Quite apparently, time has flown by like a dove on swift wings. It seems just like yesterday when I entered secondary school. And it seems just like 2 days ago when I first entered primary school. My primary school, Princess Elizabeth Primary. Most of the memories were destroyed when they demolished the building to renovate. And add in all the redundant fountains and decor. I guess the old memories would have to remain deep within me. My secondary school is where most of my fondest and horrid memories lie. Shall not elaborate on those here today.

I went to NH grad nite 2006 last nite. Impressive organising work done by the council. People were surprised to see me there. I was once again extra-ing myself... (Actually I was invited by the alumni to take pics there for the alumni website.) Somehow I felt more at ease with Yi Hui and Charm's team instead of the graduating parties. Did event coverage type of shots... I guess the lighting there really put a great challenge on me. Yup. Erm the highlight of the day was when a guy proposed to a gal who had absolutely no idea that he was going to do that in fron t of the whole cohhort. I stood there and tio shocked as he muttered sweet nothings to her... The people sitting around me, namely Mr Lam, Mr Phua, Mr Chia, Ms Wassan, Mrs Siew, Sze Pheng all had different reactions. Most of them smiled, but each smile told a different tale. Mr Lam gave a "Hmmmm. okay." type of smile. Mr Phua gave a "okay la let it be" type of smile. Mr Chia was bursting in peals of laughter and was smiling widely. Ms Wassan's smile, well I shant describe it here. As for me, after smiling for a while and shooting, I realised that this is a school event, so it wasnt very appropriate for such things to occur. After making the speech, the gal went up on stage where the both of them were presented with balloons. Throughout the thing, she was smiling. That's a good sign. :) All the best to them then. What a weird time to stead. Probably wun get to see each other very often should they go to different schools.
The council apparently lost several items during the event. Shirts, skirts, bras. I was like, who on earth would want to steal such things? This batch was not as enthu as my batch la. Not all of them danced madly... Not many people cried. But then again, I'm going to miss all of them.
So many memories. All preserved. IN words and pictures. If I lose all these, my life would be quite empty eh?
Okay. Time to go to school. :) I love NP Mass Communications. (Its NOT the study of computers or photography, in case you dunno.)

gazed at e stars@8:35 AM
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Alexis Grung is EVIL. Shes eating nice yummy TUNA crackers in front of me when I'm not supposed to be eating. RAH.
LOL. The word itself makes me drool. But I must FOCUS on the gain, not the pain. :)
Hmmmm. Went to NH to see open house rehearsal this morning. Havent visited NHDS for ages. Havent danced for ages. Now having lessons at FMS block... lalalala. :)
The rest of the week is going to be quite hectic.

Work to do:
1) Print out Radio Christmas assignment - ASAP
2) Prepare unassessed speech - ASAP
3) Prepare Writcom formal outline for next week
4) Social Psychology Quiz - STUDY!!!
5) Prepare for impromtu speech

Thursday Schedule:
9am to 12pm - NP freetime
12pm - 2pm - Socpsy tutorial
3pm - 6pm - Radio tutorial
6pm - Proceed HOME

Friday Schedule:
9am - Speech Comm Tutorial
12pm - LUNCH
1pm - 4pm - Writcom tutorial
4pm - 615pm - Freetime
645pm - Proceed to Chinese Gardens MRT

Saturday Schedule:
9am - YF Camp Committee Meeting
11pm - NHHS Open House
2pm - FMSA meeting (CCA)
4pm - Proceed to attend to personal appointment
5pm onwards - Free & Easy

gazed at e stars@3:04 PM
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Went to the national stadium yesterday. Had quite an adventure... The security wun let me n SK in till we got permission from the SSC (Singapore Sports Council), wasting about 15 mins of our time. The sky wasnt that marvelous la. But it was averagely okay for the photo taking. Take a look for urself at special photo blog... :)
Erm. Oh yar. Take note that i'm developing pics at $1 per 4R print and $2 per 6R print. Profits go to the Church building fund. :)

gazed at e stars@8:52 AM
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Okay. Another boring Monday. I'm having the Monday blues sia. Quite depressed. OH wells.

Perhaps. Too many secrets have been told and retold.
Perhaps. Too many friends.
Perhaps. Too many gossips.
Perhaps. Just perhaps.

Erm. Just some random thoughts.

I miss the good old days of Secondary 1 and 2. I've had enough of this adult stress i face when i talk to people. I wanna be young again. I need some help here! Perhaps some green tea will make me young again. :P What's causing today's moody-ness? I have no idea myself... Too bad I don't have my camera, otherwise I will go to the National Stadium to take more depression shots of myself. Hehe. I shall look on the bright side. There's no school tomoro. What can I do to cheer myself up? Should I visit the NHDS chalet at East Coast tomoro?

I think my problem is, I'm trying to cater to too many people at once.Its hard to be myself.

Hmmm. I enjoyed myself the past few days. Refer to photo blog for pics... :)
VISIT my FRIENDSTER PROFILE HERE

But then again, its just so comforting as I turn back to my first love. :)
I love you oh Lord. :)

gazed at e stars@9:30 AM
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What is the best way to evangelise? Its really not that simple. Just then, a word popped in my head. "Prayer" was the word.
Its another day in school for me. :)

Once again, I just received a call asking me to help out with something. Am I being made use of? Yes! Equipment degeneration is NOT a small matter leh! All my equipment costs abt 2.5k in total! Who's gonna feed me!!! Rahhh. Using my savings to please others.

gazed at e stars@10:55 AM
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I cant believe I'm falling into depression cos I dun have my camera with me. I miss shooting.
Heres the schedule of the week:

Wednesday:
945am - Bukit Gombak
1145am - Ngee Ann Poly Meeting with IAC grp
1pm - IAC tutorial
3pm - End of tutorial
315pm - Proceed to Bedok
6pm - Home Sweet Home

[Items needed - Laptop]

Thursday:
10am - Ngee Ann Poly Freetime
11am - Meet Socpsy grp for video editing
3pm - Radio Tutorial
6pm - Home Sweet Home

[Items needed - Laptop, Minidisk, Radio notes]

Friday:
9am - Ngee Ann Poly Freetime
1pm - Written Comunication Tutorial
4pm - End of lessons
415pm - Freetime
645pm - Chinese Gardens MRT control station
1045pm - Home Sweet Home

[Items needed - Laptop, Written Communication Notes and homework]

Saturday
9am - Proceed to VIVOcity.
10am - Reach VIVOcity
1015am - PHOTOSHOOT at MV Doulos
12pm - Lunch
1230pm - Proceed to National Stadium for photoshoot
3pm - UNKNOWN [Dunno what to do here yet]
4pm - Singapore Expo
7pm - Nite Photoshoot @ Expo
9pm - Take train back home
10pm - Home Sweet Home

[Items needed - Nikon D70s, SB800, Tripod, 18-70mm kit lens, 70-300 tele lens, Bible, Notebook, Pen]

Sunday
10am - YF publicity for camp
1010am - ???
12pm - Lunch
1pm - Camp committee Meeting (Tentative)
4pm - End of meeting
410pm- Home
445pm - Proceed to Yishun
530pm - Arrival @ Yishun
545pm - Meet Primary School Mates @ control station
6pm onwards - Catching up with people whom I've lost contact with for more than 4 years.

[Items needed - Bible, Notebook, pen, Nikon D70s, Tripod???, 18-70mm kit lens, SB800, Laptop, Laptop Connector]

Wow. I feel much better now that I've planned everything out. Surprises will be expected though. :)

gazed at e stars@9:04 AM
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Remember Remember,
The fourteenth of November.
When troubles and trials can be seen,
As barriers that were long foreseen.
Perhaps its coincidence,
But is not an accident.
Time and tide will tell,
What unseen mysteries lie ahead
Yet all these truly boggles my head.
Remember remember,
The fourteenth of November.

A random poem by Kai Wen.

I woke up with a rather sore left eye. Hurts every time I blink. Its the same eye that has been twitching for the past week or two... Strange isnt it? I shall not atribute it to anything yet, but its the eye I need to use to look through my camera's viewfinder. Very important! :) Anyway, my health has been very good la, only this eye problem... Been twitching for some time... "The cause of minor eyelid twitching is unknown. A slight spasm of the lower eyelid or even both eyelids is common and of no concern." - says the health website. But it irritates me la. lol. Hope it stops....

Hmmm. I realise that I actually exceeded my 1000 sms limit... die liao la. I cant believe it happened.. I used to wow at others who exceeded 1000.... Now its me... oh dear. :(

The day has just begun. I'm sitting alone in the library waiting for 1pm. Then photoshoot and videoshoot for social psychology project. That's abt it.

gazed at e stars@10:22 AM
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Hmmm. I knew that it was going to be a complicated path being cleared out for me. With much veracity, it is totally unclear to me now. What exactly is the path to take? Which way to go? Once again, God has just answered me. My itunes randomly chose a song for me. "One Way - Jesus". Wow. Amazing isnt it. :) I'm not making it up.
Anyway, the path I'm talking about is still unclear. Does it matter? I think it does. somehow. Its not for u, my dear reader to know. Sorry! :) 2 ways to go. The old path or the new? It will stir up, or maybe already has, some trouble if i take the new path full of thorns and thistles. But there's light at the end. The old path is boring and dry. Theres also light at the end though. Which one to choose? I cant choose both. Thats the cruel fact. Time will tell. Which way? One way. :)
I don't trust anyone but God. Don't tell me what to do. It will all be revealed in time. I hope. Before I get stuck in the middle of the split ends. So I've better not hope. It WILL be revealed. Yes! Amen.

gazed at e stars@2:34 PM
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HEY HEY HEY! :) Doesnt that sound familiar my fellow blog readers! What a BORING DAY. I'm so bored. School is becoming a mundane routine... Theres no green tea project or whatsoever to boggle my mind... Thank goodness. But instead, I get totally disgusted, with much veracity, at the slacky times ahead. I'm seen wandering the desolate streets of Orchard Road. Fine. Orchard Road isnt desolate. But Anyway. What I mean is, the pure absence of any nice friends or close ones to chat with. Imagine myself alone at Orchard Road windowshopping alone? WOW. The quintessence of Orchard Road. Ho-hum.

Perhaps i miss the good old days of secondary school. Yet perhaps I miss the wonderful, glorious days of green tea. Or perhaps, I miss the hunky ziggy. Whatever the case is, it doesnt matter. My spirits have been low for 3 days... I've got no proper explanation to why my mood has been like that. Nvm. Really no explanation. Its as if something/someone/dunno what is missing in those 3 days. Ho-hum.

I'm going for a SYD (she ying dui) chalet tomorrow to Sunday evening. So you wun catch me online on Saturday nite. A special training session by our wonderful senior photographers. Yup.

Speech communications first assessed speech results:

Attention Grabbing: A
Verbal communication: B+
Non-Verbal communication: C (Unfortunately attributed to some fidgeting and lousy "afraid" posture)

Final Score: B

LEGEND
A+, A - EXCELLENT
B+, B - VERY GOOD
C+, C - GOOD
D+, D - PASS
F - FAIL

Thanks for reading thru alll these! :) Seeya guys soon!

gazed at e stars@9:03 AM
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Some things that I've done/ am doing cannot be explained... I have the faith that it is the right thing... I'm being trained... For something that requires a greater faith. For something that demands more. I'm willing. It will come through as time unravels what has been planned out for me. It will be melliflous to the Lord. I'm not on the wrong track! I'm sure! Never felt this sure before... Was abit put down by some comments; the devil was unhappy with what I was doing... He wanted to discourage me... NO way! (I admit I was quite discouraged this morning when there was a technical fault with my video presentation, but using some knowledge of plugs and adapters, the problem was solved after about 3 mins. Still, I was quite upset... It was something that I've put in alot of effort in... The video was one that was made specially to promote the YF camp... A camp that I hope will change lives... The camp committee has been planning this for months... Now is the time for promotion of the camp...

Now is the time when heaven blends with earthly saints... I give my all to you. I give my all to you! Your river flows... to this land... And on this rock... Foundations lay... Here we stand.... I give my all to you... I give my all to you... Pouring out this treasure you gave... I wil arise and lay down this sacrifice...

I wanna grow! The foundations of my Christian life can be traced all the way back to me first baptism... I was so young back then... Din understand much... Thought that the water that was placed on my head was the baptism water... I recall myself looking up laconically and asking if there was a leak in the ceiling...

You must be thinking, Kai Wen has gone bonkers again, blogging so verbosely about his religion... But nevertheless, I'm not gonna boast abt relationship with God.. This post here has been made to show that I've been affected by the people around me very easily... It isnt a good thing... Too sensitive liao!

Certain things cannot be revealed here right now... In time, all of you will understand... Why I do certain things in a different manner than others! :) Why 2 of these instead of 1?

This post probably doesnt make much sense! But the knowledgable will get what I mean. With much candour, I need mental support...Not discouragement...

will definitely miss comm comm if i were to accept the calling...

gazed at e stars@6:25 PM
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